Having chosen my Break article's topic to be about recent controversy concerning Seaworld, alot of things have come to my mind. Memories of visiting Seaworld, the show, the act, the sort of connection between man and wild. It felt so safe, humans always so fearless, we think we have mastered the world. Little did I know of the damage behind the act, the story of these animals. It made me reflect also on one thing we saw in class this week, the dangers of a single story. It nice to think that watching the whales do all these amazing things is safe, harmless, sustainable and even at sometimes better for the animal. But the sad truth is that those animals live in a jail-like environment, all for cheap tourism. Are we so caught up in ourselves that we forget to look at the other side of things? At least thats how I feel.
Recently, searching for "Beautiful Works" I stumbled upon a video I had seen months ago about free soloing, or rope-less climbing. The guy in the video, Alex Honnold, climbs without any harness or rope, no safety net or anything, he falls= he's dead. The videos shows the tense recording that make you cringe, he is so high up, one bad move and bam, dead. Scary as it sounds, Alex is calmer than ever. He has prepared, he knows what he is doing, he's just living, doing. I think that sometimes fear stands in our way of actually doing anything. Fear of getting so high up and then falling down on one bad move you make. Fear drives our do's and dont's, our dreams, our whole life. We create a story, a distraction, we deviate from what we actually really want and end up nowhere at all. We build ourselves these parameters that show what we can and can't do. We pull in opinions from society, we add in a little bit of our own judgement, and end up with a dark piece of junk which burdens our mind and happiness. Fear, the biggest disease of all. Half of the semester has already passed and reflective questions keep appearing in class and outside of class. What am I doing? What am I not doing? Am I passionate of what I'm doing? And while there is no simple answer for each of these questions they are necessary in order to keep going.
I can frankly say that there are many things that I am doing wrong, a few excellent things slipped in through the cracks, and passion comes and goes. After the initial rush of the beginning of school and getting used to the new systems, the new teachers, new projects, new classmates, I feel like everything has settled. In a way things have become a routine. To be honest, I no longer feel that joy of coming to school (especially on non-innovation days), days seem to last forever and the assignments just keep on coming, and I can personally say I'm not pushing myself to do my best. Reevaluating these last months, they started out great, I was passionate, ready and eager, but these last few weeks I really just don't know what I am doing. I guess I just really need to find that push to keep me going for the remainder of the year. |
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May 2015
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